Starting Over... again

Today is Tuesday. I was fired last Friday. I'm still in a bit of shock. But at least I'm able to eat and drink now. I was surprised when I couldn't even keep down bread and water for almost 48 hours. I've been through some pretty rough times, but I've *never* reacted like that before. But that was last weekend and today is another day. I'm thinking more clearly now, and I'm certain what bothers me most is not that I was fired, but that I was given no explanation. I've focused my entire life on learning from my experiences and then educating others. Whether that education is in teaching people on how the law could help, or by giving hope and encouragement, my entire life has been a path clearing for the public good. To be fired for trying to do good is still unfathomable. Is it true that when one door closes another opens? If so, can I see what is behind that door before I enter? Only time will tell. For the moment though, I think it better if I don't make rash or quick decisions. It's only been two days. Yes, my credit score will drop. Yes, I will live off pasta for dinner more than once per week. Yes, I will not likely realize my dream to be stable before I turn 40. But I cannot believe that my life's path is to endure what I have endured only to return to living in my car. I studied for the LSAT by the light of the dashboard of my car. I finished law school. I started to make a dent in helping the less advantaged people of South Carolina. And yet today, Tuesday, June 16, 2009 I sit on my couch browsing job listings. There is an opportunity for me out there... an opportunity that utilizes my life experience and education to help people who are unable to help themselves. Be patient citizens. I will be back.